I just saw a movie w/this actress Sara Paxton - I want her legs so bad! And I tried to hide behind an lj cut, but couldn't figure it out - someone want to enlighten me?

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ok so I'm home sick today w/a throat infection, which you would think would be great for my eating, but instead I've been stuffing my face w/anything I can find that would take away the throat pain, like toast and crackers.  I'm such a carb addict, I swear. 

Current Mood: crappy

Ugh so I'm new here but I just feel like venting.  As if I don't have enough problems, now my seizure disorder has to complicate things.  I already can barely afford my medication as it is, and I'm starting to have partial seizures now.  I've been seizure free for years now and all of a sudden my body is betraying me.  And unlike a lot of community members, I am older and on my own financially - my parents don't help me at all.  I have a good job, but I'm going to lose it if I keep missing days due to my health as well as my un-diagnosed ED.  I feel kinda weird coming on here b/c it seems like most of the members are younger and in school and b/c I'm not underweight no one knows that I have eating issues as well.  I'm 5'4" and 130 lbs currently - ick!!!.  My LW is 104 (God I wish I could get back there) and at my worst I was 156.  I don't even know how to define my ED - I don't purge, although I do binge.  I used to be so good at eating very little but I've lost the willpower and now I'm just discouraged.  I used to be able to get by on some low fat yogurt and a 6-pack peanut butter crackers (for the protein) a day (under 500 cals total), but now it seems impossible.  I just feel like a fat, disgusting failure.  I read the posts and I'm so jealous of the people that can restrict so well - I've tried, but I just can't - food is just one of my addictions.  I'm hoping to find some support here, so if anyone reads this, please add me as a friend so we can chat, k?

Current Mood: annoyed